Thanks for listening
I do not write well when my soul is not quiet, and I have had strings pulling at me in several directions lately. I really don’t write for myself. I always have someone or a group of someone’s in mind when I set out to put something down.
A lot of writers tell me that they only write for themselves, but I am not too inclined to believe them. Why pen something publicly in that case? File your little missives away in an encrypted password file and be done with it.
I write either to be understood, or to entertain. But a problem arises when I only want to be understood by some, or wish to entertain some, but not others. I only have one site left that a very select few know where it is and have the password to get into it. But I haven’t posted there in a very long time because the audience is so restricted.
Posting here gets more views, but then there are some reading this that I am unwilling to share certain topics with, so my style gets cramped. I end up in paralysis, unable to write for either faction. Yet I love each group.
I want to break the mold, sometimes, but that isn’t possible. So I continue to live two lives. And now I am considering a new online identity, one that can write risqué material, that can use foul language, that can plumb the limits of primal instincts, and do so in a wide forum.
In short, I want to go back to being a phony. Or maybe I am a phony who wants to get real. It doesn’t matter.
And I think I just solved my dilemma. Thank you for listening …
Rusty's Armory 
May 12, 2017 at 8:28 pm
I feel your pain….the stuff you post on that more public forum is the real you….
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May 12, 2017 at 9:00 pm
Thank you! 🙂
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May 12, 2017 at 9:04 pm
yep i was listening have speak it app with google. these ole eyes get tired reading and some post are really long. i am like what the Written Word says: Heb 5:14
But strong meat belongeth to them that are of full age, even those who by reason of use have their senses exercised to discern both good and evil. Mat 12:35
A good man out of the good treasure of the heart bringeth forth good things: and an evil man out of the evil treasure bringeth forth evil things. Luk 6:35
But love ye your enemies, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and ye shall be the children of the Highest: for he is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil. Luk 6:45
A good man out of the good treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is good; and an evil man out of the evil treasure of his heart bringeth forth that which is evil: for of the abundance of the heart his mouth speaketh. 1Pe 3:10
For he that will love life, and see good days, let him refrain his tongue from evil, and his lips that they speak no guile:
i hope i did not take your restless soul the wrong way. i think not famous Words when the storms come at us say “peace be still” that is what Jesus said while in the boat His Deciple’s were fearful by the storm. I Believe God still today has not changed and He still honors His Word. May God shower His Blessings to u and all those u love
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May 12, 2017 at 9:42 pm
Thank you! 🙂
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May 12, 2017 at 9:45 pm
I am SHOCKED! Shocked I say that You write Risque Material. Or that You use fowl language. Giggle. After all Pop and Mom were both so retiring and mealy mouthed. giggle. OHHHH I think I just wet myself from laughing. But I do realize that Not everything is for Public Consumption. Do what you must to keep your Muse working.
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May 12, 2017 at 9:47 pm
😀 I can curl toes if I put my mind to it …
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