It has been a while since I have written much of anything, other than some snark on facebook and such. My vision is so bad these days that I am unable to see the words clearly, and whole sentences appear to have huge vacant gaps in them, making writing and proofing a major chore.
Driving is completely out of the question. A black car in the shade on black asphalt is invisible, and I cannot work on my tractor because it is painted black. It is all one big black blob. My brother was able to repair a broken idler pulley for me that was in plain sight for a someone that could see. Even when I do mow, it is very difficult to see where I have mowed previously.
I really became discouraged when I failed the pre-op exam for cataract surgery. I didn’t handle that so well. I was ready to just lay down and die. In fact, I sort of did start abetting the dying process. I just don’t want to sit around and wait for lunch for the rest of my life.
I told the doc I was done, and that would be my last visit … I wasn’t seeking out anymore medical attention. He then told me he thought I could get the surgery after the cardiologist was done with me, so I gave it one more try. After the usual things, EKG’s, stress tests, echocardiogram, imaging and such, the cardiologist said he wasn’t concerned about the surgery.
So … back to the ophthalmologist. Next up, measurements, another pre-op exam, covid test, left eye, covid test, right eye … and I am back to my old obnoxious self. I’ll be able to write long passages again, drive, tell Snookums how to drive, and see where I have mowed.
My spirits are up again …