Obit: Annie-Annie 4:30PM

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Some of you may not want to read this.  I am not going to gloss on about euthanasia or offer up any gentle platitudes concerning it.

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What bone cancer looks like …

Annie-Annie.  Or Annie as we normally called her, came as a stray puppy who was abandoned and lived off night crawlers and bugs.  She followed Linda and Sherry home one day while they were walking the neighborhood.  She was emaciated, and I didn’t think she would live a week then.  I was not for keeping her, but the women persisted and so we slowly brought her weight up.  She had a lot of problems with her knees and had surgery on all of them.  I think it was because she was thrown out of a car.  People do that down here.  Drive out into the country, throw the dog out and drive off.

Like most labs, she was stoic and seldom complained.  Watching her these last few days when you wonder if it is time or not was hard.  She can rest ok but moving is painful and slow.  We just could not let her continue to suffer and made the decision to call the vet and make that last trip.  It is almost time to bring the car around and load her as I write this, and I swallow hard, press my lips, and force myself to do what needs to be done. We already received more time with her than we originally thought we would.

Thanks to Sanchia and her generous giftings of CBD oil which I am convinced gave us those precious months, but it is time.

Afterwards:

They ALWAYS give you that last long look

It is something I never get used to.  My other dog owning friends talk about euthanasia as something peaceful and even beatiful.  But for me it is anything but peaceful or beautiful.  The vet comes in, the vet assistant holds the dog, the vet sprays the site, inserts the needle, and the shot is given, then everyone tries to gently lay the dog down as it relaxes from the lethal compound.  Her ears went up, the doc listened till the heart stopped, seconds later she weakly tried to howl twice in reflex, but didn’t have the strength, and once again the doc checked her eyes for reflex.  She was gone.  It was over in ten long seconds.  I killed her.

Yeah, it was necessary.  It was time.  But it wasn’t easy, and I don’t think it is supposed to be easy.  I don’t feel like I was there for her.  I don’t think she crossed over any rainbow bridges into that beautiful dog park in the sky. 

4:35 PM Wednesday, September 1, 2021, I killed my beloved dog.  Humanely.

13 thoughts on “Obit: Annie-Annie 4:30PM

    rwiegers1155 said:
    September 1, 2021 at 7:12 pm

    I am so sorry, my friend. Deeply, truly, sorry.

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    Rusty Armor responded:
    September 1, 2021 at 7:18 pm

    It is what it is. It serves to remind us that we are merely sojourners here ourselves … thank you!

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      jennywrenrocks said:
      September 1, 2021 at 11:31 pm

      I’m sorry for your loss. In the much too recent past okay, I had to do the same thing. It’s horrible even if you know it’s what’s best. It’s a heart-wrenching decision.

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    Audrey Dobson said:
    September 1, 2021 at 11:54 pm

    Dear George and Linda, I’m so sorry for the loss of your beloved Annie. She was a blessing to you (K’Lev), as you were to her. With God’s help, may each day get a little easier to bear, even if it takes a lifetime.

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    Diana DiCarlo said:
    September 2, 2021 at 2:00 am

    So sorry for your loss. Im sure that had to be a difficult decision. God Bless you and run free Miss Annie

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    Lia Storm said:
    September 2, 2021 at 6:04 am

    I am so sorry. This is never an easy decision. My long time pup died here at home the morning I was supposed to take her to have her put down. I am glad I did not have to do it that way. Hugssss

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    Rivergirl said:
    September 2, 2021 at 6:06 am

    So very, very sorry. Your post made me cry because of course I’ve been there. The hardest decision we pet lovers have to make and it takes a part of my heart with it every time. I have no words to help other than these…. know that you gave her a good home and a good life. But most of all? Love. The fact that your heart is breaking is proof.
    💕

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    Boo said:
    September 2, 2021 at 9:47 am

    I had to do the same in Feb. It’s so hard. Jegs was my cuddle dog. He was Nick’s dog and became mine. I miss him so much. Thinking of you, my friend, and know how much you hurt.

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    Catherine said:
    September 3, 2021 at 8:05 am

    Annie was loved and may you find comfort in knowing she loved you, too. I pray the days are kind to you, my friend.

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      Rusty Armor responded:
      September 3, 2021 at 10:32 am

      Overall, they have been … and may your days be easy too! 🙂

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    The Hinoeuma said:
    September 4, 2021 at 12:20 am

    I’m so sorry sweetie. Ken & I have had to put down a blind Chocolate Lab many years ago and a Golden Retriever in late 2015. Both were so big and heavy and, in poor shape that we had to have a mobile vet euthanize them…the Lab on the front porch, the Retriever in the front yard (both had collapsed in those spots). Both dogs went from moving around the day before to, the next day, outright collapsing (both dogs were rescue dogs and no one seemed to know their previous histories). I’ve lost other animals, too…a cat hit by a car, a cat taken away from me out of spite, one euthanized due to pancreatic cancer, one that disappeared… I even had a pet white lab rat for a time as a “tween” and my mother made me take him back to my science teacher. I even miss the pets from my grandparents and my aunts/uncles. It’s so hard to lose our companions. We merge our energies with them in a way (my Native American side is coming thru…).

    Hugs to you. I understand.

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    littlewhip said:
    September 17, 2021 at 8:49 am

    I am heartbroken at your loss, as I’m sure you are as well.

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      Rusty Armor responded:
      September 17, 2021 at 9:41 am

      It is heartbreaking. But Chronos stops for nothing.

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