J’ai des Regrets: Reflections and Resolutions in My Morning Journal
This morning, I find myself cringing at yesterday’s self-serving and maudlin post. Some of my medications seem to make my emotions run amok. Typically, I am not that emotional. Aging is undoubtedly challenging, a sentiment we all share, but it’s no reason to derail as I did. To those I cut short and unloaded on, I sincerely ask for your forgiveness. Upsetting anyone or limiting responses was not my intention. Such posts should remain in my private diary.
Today is a new day, and it began reasonably well, albeit a bit sleepily. I stretched and disconnected myself from all the biological tubes, then shuffled into the kitchen for a bit of coffee and cake with Snookums. She seemed cheerful, and her memory was better than usual today. We discussed some news items, and her perceptiveness stood out.
Later, I made my way down to my studio, only to cringe once again at yesterday’s post. There wasn’t much else worth noting—news, blah; video games, blah; weather, mild.
Today is a day of introspection and regret. I’ll strive to keep my emotions in check and return to my old stoic self.
Good morning!
Rusty's Armory 
September 29, 2023 at 12:23 pm
There’s absolutely no reason to apologize. You’re among friends here.
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September 29, 2023 at 6:03 pm
NOW YOU JUST STOP!!! Don’t you be apologizing for being human and showing emotion. That was a very touching post and you had every right to express yourself that way. And besides, I always told you that you were really a soft hearted teddy bear posing as a curmudgeon. Please don’t ever feel regret for having emotions, good or bad. We all love you Sir!!
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September 30, 2023 at 1:49 pm
I still like to keep my misery to myself. 😉
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September 30, 2023 at 4:08 pm
I understand that to a certain extent. I used to write from my heart all of the time, but the last couple of years with all that has gone on, I can’t seem to share those emotions very well because I don’t want pity and I don’t want people to think of me as the “waaahh waaahh” person. But I am glad you shared your heart, so please don’t cringe and have regrets over it. I just wish there was something I , or someone could say to make things better, but as you know, words just aren’t enough sometimes. Just know that you are in my heart and my prayers, both you and your beautiful lady. And I know that you both will live this part of your lives with grace and dignity, but if you want to yell and scream or kick a stump, sometimes that is what ya have to do!!!
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October 1, 2023 at 11:44 am
Well, I hope to move a bit beyond that in the near future. 🙂
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