One Last Update
Snookums has made the rounds of specialists now, and all we can do now is wait. She still is improving day by day, but there will be a three-year hole in her memory, and her short-term memory is still a problem. The mind is a mysterious and complex thing, and I don’t know how those who study it can conclude there is no such thing as intelligent design. I don’t know how many coincidences it took for brain development in intelligent animals, but I am convinced that it is statistically improbable for it to be an accident.
Regardless, the damage has ceased and the long road to recovery has begun. We are having wonderful conversations on aging and death with our coffee. It sounds like morbid talk to outsiders, but for us it is preparation. We shan’t escape death, at least in this age. On the other side of it, there is hope, if not actual belief.
She is still wondering why this had to happen to her, and I don’t tell her how relieved I am that she is asking why. It tells me she understands her predicament, and we can start moving on to face this challenging part of life. It is a path we can’t share with others, and at the end, it is a path we can’t share with each other. Oddly, we are at peace with that.
I am thinking this will be the last of the updates, though I will comment on her recovery from time to time in my other postings. We move forward by millimeters instead of miles, now. Each day is a day that we are called to activity. The future doesn’t exist. The past doesn’t matter. And that is enough.
I used to spend time chronicling the excesses of politics, but now I don’t want to talk about it. The bell has struck. The door has slammed shut. What will be, will be. I can’t stop it. I can’t change it. But know this, it isn’t going to be good.
So on this autumn morning with a weak sun shining out my window, I turn my thoughts to more pleasant things. My own little selfish world.
I have a new PC sitting in a box that I need to install, but it doesn’t seem to be a proper activity on the Shabbat. I am excited about it, though. It is powerful enough to do all the things I wish. I sit here and imagine how I am going to arrange things.
However, for today I muse. I write. I pray. I read.
Good morning!
Rusty's Armory 
October 15, 2022 at 10:43 am
I wish my husband and I could have that kind of conversation. Death comes for us all and being prepared, though not ready, for it can take some of the fear away.
I’m glad you and your wife are looking forward and that she continues to improve.
Add in a new computer, and it sounds like a very good day.
Handsome photo of you btw.
😉
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October 15, 2022 at 10:59 am
… aww, shucks! 🤠
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October 15, 2022 at 11:20 am
When I first glanced at it, I thought it was a young Paul Newman…
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October 15, 2022 at 11:26 am
I know it must be frustrating for Snookums to have the memory problems and the questions ast to “why”. If there is one thing I have learned through life it is that there is no “why”. Things happen, to good and to bad. The rains fall on the just and the unjust as they say. I think for both of you, being in the moment, living in the “now” is the best thing. I know I am not as old as you (not saying you are ancient of course !) but even at my age and with all that has happened, and with the way the world is heading, I find I am content to take my life day by day and appreciate my little world and my family and friends. Good Morning Sir!! ❤️
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October 15, 2022 at 11:41 am
Mornin’, Lass
I compare your tragedy vs mine, and yours is the harder one. I still have Snooks with me, and ever so often, she lets the young girl I married peek out at me. I’m not saying I am ancient either, but I DID help Noah load the boat …
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October 15, 2022 at 1:27 pm
Well doggone it, you forgot to remind him to put the unicorns on that ark!
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October 15, 2022 at 3:11 pm
Handsome George. Why didn’t you act in anything else?
Would you be offended if I snatched a copy of your above picture and put it on IMDb? I have an account and have made updates & changes to data over the years.
It is good that there is collaboration and love between you two. You are quite the pair. I wish I had found the companionship you have.
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October 15, 2022 at 3:28 pm
That particular picture is a screen grab from “Easy Rider” I think there is a pic of me with Jack Nicholson in Easy Rider on IMDb. I did work as an extra on several movies, some I have forgotten. Cheyene Social Club and Butch Cassidy and the Sundance kid were a couple.
I am not sure what my old ID is there, perhaps Rusty Armor or George Fowler.
I was a bit too moral for Hollywood, or maybe just too priggish. I thought overall that it was demeaning. And being hetro back in those days was a résumé killer.
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October 15, 2022 at 4:48 pm
You are listed as George Fowler Jr. You aren’t listed, even as an extra, on The Cheyenne Social Club or Butch Cassidy. I might can remedy that…if you are interested…
So, being a straight male, even in ’69, was a bad thing?
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October 15, 2022 at 5:43 pm
Getting work then often required you to ‘meet’ people. I did know Nicolson from working with him, and drank with Hopper, but I didn’t go to any Hollywood events with them. I didn’t do entourage very well either.
No, the credits are just fine … I’d just like to be remembered as one of the ugly’s .. .😉
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October 15, 2022 at 5:46 pm
See my link? Is it in spam?
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October 16, 2022 at 2:50 pm
I didn’t see a link …
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